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|“|| Even if I go to hell, I will live till the end of this world. And if the world does not come to an end... I will destroy it with my own hands!
Lacan was destined to become one of the greatest sources of evil the world had ever known. Lacan was the third known incarnation of Abel the Contact, the boy who made contact with the Wave Existence on board the Eldridge.
Sophia describes Lacan as sweet. He cannot bear to see others hurt by his own actions so he holds everything in and bears all the burden. Even if Lacan is hurt in the end, he thinks it is fine.
Lacan was born at the eastern edge of Ignas in a frontier village (near present day Lahan Village) in the year 9475. When Lacan was 6 years old, his parents died, and even though he was young, he lived by himself.
When he was about 8 years old, he met Sophia, the Holy Mother of Nisan. He knew her since she was a child and was one of the few people to know her by her given name, Elehayym, or Elly. Lacan mentions in-game that they were not really childhood friends - he made her acquaintance at the monastery near his home as a child. She went to the clinic for convalescence as she was frail. At their parting, Lacan gave Sophia a sketch of herself.
On a trip visiting away from home in 9493, Lacan is pulled into the conflict over rule with Solaris and there, he meets Karellen of Nimrod. Lacan thinks Karellen and Sophia are together, and while Lacan and Sophia see each other again, there is no reunion.
In 9496, around the time of the initial outbreak of the Shevat-Solaris War, Lacan and Sophia reunite at Ashura Monastery. Lacan then lived in Nisan with Karellen and Sophia.
Lacan was plagued by self-esteem issues and always used to put himself down. When he was commissioned to paint Sophia's portrait in 9499, he was initially hesitant and felt he wasn't good enough to do the job. Lacan loved Sophia very dearly but didn't know how to express it so he purposefully painted her portrait very slowly just so he could spend more time with her as she modeled for it. He was so deliberately slow that he never managed to finish it completely before the Shevat-Solaris War broke out. Lacan even lied about not having enough paint. Both Lacan and Karellen loved Sophia, but Sophia seemed to have more feelings towards Lacan (naturally, given the relationship between the Antitype and Contact), which angered Karellen.
When Sophia sacrificed herself at the end of the war (9500) without Lacan ever telling her he loved her, it devastated him completely. He was plagued by issues of self-weakness which developed into a hunger for power. His weakness, he felt, led to Sophia's death and he never wanted to be weak again. He resented himself for not having the power to do anything as she died in front of him.
His quest for power began to make him more and more ruthless. In his search for power he eventually crossed paths with Myyah Hawwa in 9501, who was inhabiting the body of a Solarian soldier currently imprisoned in Shevat after the Gazel Ministry handed her over to the Shevat government (in exchange for Sophia, ironically enough) citing her as the source of the war. Myyah played on his hunger for power and told him about the source of ultimate power on the planet, the Zohar located in The Land of Bethlehem, because she expected Lacan to die, likely because Myyah was unaware that Lacan was the Contact.
Following Myyah's instructions Lacan found the Zohar and made an imperfect contact with it. Lacan was deeply troubled both mentally and spiritually when he made contact. Instead of dying, and gained untold powers from it. He learned of his past lives, and his role as the Contact. However, what he learned destroyed him: In all his "lives" Elly died protecting him, and the realization that she would always die to save him broke him. He then left the name Lacan behind and became Grahf, the Seeker of Power.
- Main article: Grahf
In 9501, Grahf found the resting place of the legendary Diabolos (Deus' first stage mobile terminals) Gears, autonomous angelic Gears of incredible power. He claimed one of them, the original or "True" Weltall as his own and the rest became his army. He turned the Diabolos (Deus' first stage mobile terminals) on both Shevat and Solaris and in a single day he nearly decimated both aerial nations. Grahf and Diabolos proceed to annihilate the surface. Due to this destruction, 96% of the population is lost.
He killed all 12 members of the Gazel Ministry along with Rene Fatima, however at the end of the battle, which became known as the "Day of Destruction" the Diabolos were defeated by the surface dwellers led by Roni Fatima and Grahf was driven off.
Eventually, Lacan died in 9510, without anyone knowing. Leaving only his will behind, it moved into people who become Grahf. Lacan had been able to survive for over 500 years as Grahf by transmigrating his soul into other peoples' bodies and taking them over from the inside out.
Grafh's last host before his ultimate demise was Khan Wong, the father of Fei Fong Wong, the fourth known incarnation of Abel the Contact and the man Lacan was looking to transmigrate into all along. Lacan eventually died when Grahf and Khan did, when he latched onto the Zohar with his Gear and initiated a self-destruct. The resulting explosion neutralized the function of the Zohar long enough to allow Fei and his companions to stop Karellen and Deus and rescue Elly. Karellen refers to Fei as Lacan, a name that only bears relevance to Fei at the end of the game, when he obtains the memories of all of his past lives.
- "Roni, you're giving me too much credit. As long as you do something to keep yourself occupied... you can ignore the hollowness inside. From the beginning, my very existence itself was an emptiness. It wouldn't matter if I were to die right now... You live, you die... That's all..."
- It's never explained why Lacan has the same clothes and appearance as Fei. They are likely the result of developer laziness (as creating new clothes would mean a new spritesheet).
- His name may be a vague reference to Laban from the Bible. It may also be a reference to the French psychoanalyst Jacques Lacan, given the game's heavy themes of psychology.